Okai, as per requested, thy shall update and put my wishlist in priority order >_> and make the text bigger and more readable =.0

1. BDAE CARDS! $0-$?
2. Puma watch $255
3. Crocodile Cotton Cardigan 2008 Collections $119 size: S
4. iphone $200+? (many mention it will come to sg at this price? i wish doh =D)
5. PSP Black Slim $300+
6. Porter Int Diamond Sling Bag $??? size: S
7. Issey Miyake Pour Homme $105+
8. More Ikea Quilt Cover Set $79 (ard there, those 200*200cm ones =D)
9. More Fred Perry (fake from penisula also can)/ Crocodile/ Cotton On Tee/ $ Price unknown for first two $30 @ 2 for Cotton On size: 2 (So long got lining design at collar and sleeves)
10. More Berms/ Hotpants $30+ size: 28waist 32hip
11. More g2000blu Basic Tees $23 @ 2 size: S
12. More g2000 Wrinkle Free Business Shirt $30-50+ size: 14.5
13. More Printed Tees $20+
14. Braziliano Praia $49.90 size: 8
15. Green Moleskin Plain Pages $15 size: M
16. Muji Facial Oil and Toner $19-25 Sensitive/ Oily skin

Either way, some short notes for the day!

Went swimming at CDANS, got tanned, and was splashing water at birds bathing by the pool =D

Watched Zohan with bro at Lot1 cinema, theatre was empty, there goes us blasting out ring tone, and shouting =D

Crazy day ^_^'

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I am not sure how many would agree with me; living in Singapore is getting boring, boring and more boring. I found myself waking up, attending to my mundane chores, followed by hanging around the house not knowing what to do.

I do have a life! Thanks mama for asking me to help her prepare some dish! Thanks myself for making me practise my kanas, and penning down my thought. Apologies to my Feten; i promise i will bring you out some day :P Thanks to pals and frens who are there for me (doh you guys aint always around, am still glad and happy with that occasional pop-hi).

Nonetheless, would you be sastified with life of heading to town, random walking, random cafe-ing? Not forgetting to mention, random shopping, random oogling at eye candies.

Perhaps it is not the fault of this little island; i ought to get engaged in some weekend activities, or get a real time bf/ gf to spend my time with. However, we have to agree that we are too small, and there aint enough quality entertainment? There ought to be some, but they are definitely too expensive for anyone to afford/ indulge.

This very moment, as i am rounding up this entry, am feeling really empty. Here are the days again, where i woke up not knowing what to do, not knowing what i want in life, not knowing what is the point of life.

Empty, empty, empty. It is really interesting how i can stay positive so just bring a smile to others.

For e.g. Terry San bought a overpriced carpet in Dubai, but alas i was able to tell him, well look past that, since what done cant be reversed, why not look forward to how nice it will be when it is in ya house?

For e.g. a fren of mine was feeling jaded after some rs rejection. There he was like the past me, feeling emo and feeling sad. I was able to tell him, there ought to be a point where your heart is so damaged and killed that you will no longer feel the pain, and will move on.

Lol, i am not sure if that was exactly how i felt, but my heart felt really dead, so dead that it has problem sensing LoVe. Perhaps i am not swept off my feet as yet? lol shrugs.

Anyway, nowadays i really fear sleeping. I really hate the feeling when i close my eyes, feeling disconnected with the World, feeling really empty. Sigh Sigh Qi is not feeling well again.

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Finally got my arse moving, putting up my Bdae wishlist.

Some facts:
::My Bdae is on the 30th July 1986 (question yerself! did you read the fero tab? !@#!#!$)

::You can get me all sorts of expensive gifts (yes i will thank you). However if you did not get me a Bdae card (with some personal touches) along with that gift, i wont be happy at all T.T.

::Saying that, yes, i have a fetish to collect Bdae cards.

::And yes, getting me a card is all you need, cos i do not really need anyone to get me posh/ even buy me stuff :P


The List (go to the raid it tab for the pics!)

1. Puma watch $255
2. PSP Black Slim $300+
3. Crocodile Cotton Cardigan 2008 Collections $119 size: S
4. iphone $200+?, many mention it will come to sg at this price? i wish doh =D
5. Porter Int Diamond Sling Bag $??? size: S
6. Issey Miyake Pour Homme $105+
7. Green Moleskin Plain Pages $15 size: M
8. Braziliano Praia $49.90 size: 8
9. Muji Facial Oil and Toner $19-25 Sensitive/ Oily skin
10. More g2000blu Basic Tees $23 @ 2 size: S
11. More g2000 Wrinkle Free Business Shirt $30-50+ size: 14.5
12. More Berms/ Hotpants $30+ size: 28waist 32hip
13. More Printed Tees $20+
14. BDAE CARDS! $0-$?
15. More Ikea Quilt Cover Set ($79, ard there, those 200*200cm ones =D)

That is all folks! And please, do not feel obliged to buy me anything. If i know that you are not some rich bastards, and yet you buy me some really expensive stuff, i will be really sad and dissapointed T.T

Give me a Bdae card, give me a hug, jus ask me out for dinner; the intention is what i appreciate!

Arigatous!

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Cam whoring first always!! Cam whore cam whore cam whore!

Cam what?....WHORE!



Time for some updates!!! Was saying that my vintage POSB card chipped T.T Curse you! That short clothe hanger at Lot1 Giordano fitting room zzz. Now my since-primary-school-cum-my-first-ever-card is to rest in peace. Emo le T.T

i LoVe You always T.T



Nonetheless, say hi^^ to Miss Sharp! She jus brings life, and peace (my bro and mum's constant struggle over the TV, and my parents mundane ranting at unstriked 4D results -.-) to the family.

Miss Sharp!


Sharppppppppppp!


Dad is scandalous -.-


Anyway okie dokie! That is all for the updates, outta move on to post on my Bdae wish list :P licky licky!

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Alot have happened over this short period of time. Those whom was there, am grateful, those whom are not, i take the doubt that you are tied down with something.

Alas, thanks Terry and Chris San, for all the going out and eating at atas >_> yet cheap place =D Pepperoni @ Greenwood, HardRock @ Orchard!

Also thank you great peeps for all the stuff and the jappy course =D

Arigatou Gozaimus!


Anyway.... i will put up my Bdae wishlist soon IF I HAVE the time >_> alas, am hoping to get it up tml. Nonetheless, most of the stuff are already bought by Terry and Chris San =D Sei sei sei! An Italian will say it, there are still stuff to be bought! muhahaha.

Fero is currently feeling happy, yappy, and somewhat glee. However there is still a great level of sightatious. For the better i guess, will update more tml!

Cheers

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Not sure why. But my heart felt empty. There is this sadness and grief somewhere deep down. I can feel it exactly, but than, i can only grasp it vividly. I have tried looking, hoping to discover what is it that is bothering me exactly, so i can render a remedy. Alas the search was futile...

My heart felt so dead. I am finding it hard to LoVe again. Is it damaged too much?

Empty...

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Hijacked from Dan's Blog (not to be disclosed: as requested :P)

歌 名 ﹕ 伯乐
歌 手 ﹕ 林宥嘉

This song was intro-ed by a good pal of mine! The MTV is really touching/ romantic/ sad. Imagine being the guardian angel for someone, helping him/her choose which guys is the best, and eventually seeing him/her go one day...yet you never told him/her how much you LoVed him/her actually...

伯乐 has got a very literature meaning; it was a term derived from a ancient saint, and his relationship with a horse. His admiration, appreciation, and encouragement ultimately let this looked-down upon horse emerge as pedigree one fine day.

In modern times, 伯乐 is used to describe that very special person whom you appreciates, and whom you have feelings for. Hence 我是你的伯乐。。。

Since it is such a nice song, thy shall put down The Call::Regina Spektor::Narnia Ending Theme for a while, so everyone can appreciate this great song :P



冠 軍 - 超 級 星 光 大 道 起 家 的 林 宥 嘉。
總 於 出 傳 輯 了 。
有 瞭 亮 ﹐感 性 的 雄 厚 的 嗓 子 ﹐
成 功 地 述 說 一 個 情 人 對 剛 分 手 的 衷 心 感 謝 和 對 感 情 的 不 捨。
對 這 首 歌 超 情 有 獨 鐘 !

伯乐

爱你的那一个 伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个 然后等待着下一个
最后哪一个让你最舍不得
感谢不能让别人来说
你给过我的 她们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的 虽然过去了
我们也都经历了
释怀教育着仇恨 和平劝着天下人
故事发生便住下了 不管好的坏的
你让我成长了 就算是痛得值得
爱你的那一个 伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个 然后等待着下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐
爱你的那一个 伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个 然后等待着下一个
别太多过客祝你早日快乐
离开时别忘了 看看眼前的人
流泪记住了 还是微笑祝福着

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For those who know when my Bdae is good for you! For those who dun... awww too bad =D And unless you are gonna get me something, than dun bother to ask! LOL.

No, dun misjudge me. I am not a materialistic fart-tart! Those whom truly know me, i have never gotten expensive gifts/ presents from my peers or acquaintance. I only get expensive stuff from my dear, and or family members =) or those who can really afford it/ and or force me to accept -.-

Yes, do misjudge me. I am a sentimental fart- tart! Get me a LV bag without a personalize Bdae card, you will see me roar, scratch, and bite you =D and no, i am not joking... i meant it -.-

Bdae (22nd) is jus round the cornor! And damn! I am gonna ORD prior to my Bdae... this only means that i cant chop my bosses and those meanies colleagues carrot head! Damn x 3!!!

And yes, am thinking if i should be celebrating it with a bang, like when i am attached, or should i celebrate it like Bdae (21st), sleeping pass it. Well if you guys wanna date me out, do let me know ok! And and and, that actual Bdae, Bdae, is saved for either myself, or my family, so dun go vie who gets to go out with me on my Bdae!

Oh, please give me a few days as i come up with my Bdae wishlist! IMHO, it is a totally shrugs list. However there are pressure from friends (gun point -.-) asking me to fix one, so they wont end up buying random useless stuff :P


Braziliano Praia! My eyes lit-up when i shopped-by NUM at Cineleisure; I finally found that particular cutting of sandals i have been looking for! Immediately, i danced into the shop and demanded for the black footing, white base, BP to be fitted on me! It felt jus like Carrie Bradshaw as she set eyes on that perfect shoe! Yes... that perfect shoe =D...

After paying ($49.90 with a T.T), i could not resist but to chuck away my old one (now, gardening flip-flops) and put on the BP immediately! I could not have felt happier, and 38-er! So there goes the glee little me (yea! i get happy easily), dancing along the streets in my new BP! And and and, i was so about to get myself a Coke Light, so i can float like Sarah Jessica Parker =D

BP! BP! BP! Imma buy more BP! of different color!



Jus jogged. Went jogging today! Kinda a boring nite; the park connector is so dead, and am jus feeling empty. Prolly the upcoming interview is bothering me, but alas, it is part and parcel of life i guess =D

Or was i bothered by the perfect loafers which i failed to get from pedro? Bah if i pass the interview, imma gonna get it! Muhahahaha :P

I prefer the darker tone one i think =D Be mine soon please!


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The day when i no longer have the rights is going to come soon. Can i get used to it? I guess not, but alas, do i have a choice? I musnt be selfish...


失去专利权的那一天很快就会绛令。我会习惯吗？ 我猜想应该不会。。。可是我别无选着，我不能自恃。。。

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Going out in a while, to meet Terry san and his fren Dan san. Prolly gonna chill out a little and chat abt the job that i am seeing to take up =P.

tsk tsk, keeping it as a secret for now! Too much of getting around simply spoils the good things! Don't you agree?


I am feeling much better already. I have to get back up quick and strong i guess, i must not be so selfish i guess. Oh well, let nature takes its own course.

Well gotta get dressed! ciao!!


多一会儿我就得往市区跑一趟。
今晚约了Terry & Dan san唱迎一杯
顺便谈谈我新工作的事！

什么工作？
哈哈！不好意识咯！必须保密！

哦，还有。
我的心情好多了！
请别担心！

我得赶快站起来！
我得坚强！
我想我不能自私吧。。。

嗨

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When i blog at such odd hour, it only means that i am not ok.

When i blog with such fragmented and short sentences, it only means that i am not ok.

I hate my past, and bull to all those happy memories which i should treasure. They are nothing of aid, in relieving me of the pain that is eating me inside out right now.

I hate being alone.


Randomly here are jus some short notes that i ought to pen down, before the sane me is all lost. Pardon me, i jus need to keep my mind bothered with things, so that it wont set itself on the thinking mode.


LoVe is not about finding the perfect one to LoVe, but it is about knowing how to LoVe someone imperfect, perfectly.

Relationship is not always about hoping to get something out of it at the end of the day, but it is about being there for that special someone, rain or shine. Being there when he needs you, and being there behind him supporting him silently.

If time can revert, i really wished that i can be there for you. No matter where you go to, in this world, i jus want to be by ya side. By ya side, i want to man this little house for you, this little warm and comfortable home, which you can come home to every night. By ya side, i want to let you know that, i will always be here for you, rain or shine, woe or glee, i will always be here to give you a big hug, support, and LoVe.

End of the day, even if i have to walk out of this as if i was only a passer-by, i will tell myself to be happy. Be it seeing you from afar, so long that i know you are happy, no matter what, i will try to be happy, be happy for you the very least, the very way i know you have wanted me to be.

We both bumped into the harsh fact, but the very least, i will pull myself together very quickly, so that i can be there to support you. I will bear all the pain for you, i will bear all the sadness for you, i will bear all the storm for you, so jus we can make it pass this gloomy period, and see that rainbow that lits a smile on ya face, and our lifes.

This is going to be a very long marathon. Alas i will never let you fall behind, i will never let you slow down, nor will i let us take a break. For i know, when you fall, or when you are tire and needs a break, i will be there to carry you, and continue our journey towards the never ending storyline.

No matter what it may be, you know that i will always be there waiting for you. In that white pure robe, i will be there, that very place that we know we will be.

No matter what it may be, you know that i am always jus around you. You jus need to call my name, and i will fly to your side immediately.

No matter what it may be, you know that you will always be here, in a special place in my heart.

No matter what it may be, you know that you are always welcomed here.

Am here always :)


LoVe is silly. That is why we does silly things when we are in LoVe.

LoVe is special. That is why i always typed it L-o-V-e.

i for me is always small, that is because You in my heart, takes a bigger more significant place.


i know you are the one, for when i loses you in a crowd i get worried and becomes frantic.
i know you are the one, for when i am with you, i become warm, blushy, and uneasy.
i know you are the one, for when i see you feeling unwell, my heart breaks a thousand times.
i know you are the one, for when i hear your need for me, i blame myself for not having wings.
i know you are the one, for when i am here typing all these silly, and racking my brain to pen down more.
i know you are the one...


Bah i dun dare to fall asleep, my heart hurts.

Fero is not feeling well....

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Am feeling depressed once again. Also i have forgotten to take my evening primrose in the morning (evening primrose is a name as a whole <_<).

I hate distance, be it displacement kind, distance-distance kind, or emotional, and even physical kind.

I hate loneliness.

What a bad start for a blog ~.~

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I experience shortness of breath (SOB) when i get moody. I can't breath well and suffers from this suffocating feeling (literally) when i am moody. I realised evening primose oil keeps my mood elevated, or keeps me thinking positive at least.

Sigh why am i always tormented so badly always? Is this my retribution?

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Got half a day off today! Hence i took the effort and time to actually start clearing the clutter(s) in my room. Laid my hands on the computer desk side cupboard today; i dare not mention that is was a fruitful clearing, as there are all these small little items (like cable tie, half tube UHU glue, small badge, etc etc) that i can't bear to throw >_> i mean hey! you never know when they will come in handy! :P

Alas, was doing some clearing of files from my computer; compacting folders of picture of those whom have past on in my life, and deleting of pictures.

Here are some design/ doodle/ old photos to share with you peeps :P do have a good laugh if any tickled yer' funny bones!

My always idiotic+ irritatin brother


These pics are from Nee Phoi/ GardenAsia












Doodle from poly (5 yrs ago)


More doodle


My first blog


2nd blog


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Woke up to a lazy morning taking a growl from my tummy >_>. Am home alone! as my parents went to have fun on their own, while my brother went partying (he parties 24/7 -.---> LOOK! someone is dancing by the trees with the Bangalas!).

Ringed up my folks, thinking that they will be oh-so-kind to buy brunch for me; i was told to heat up the rice dumplings.






















!@#!#@ Only if my Ba Zhangs are as big as the one in the pic, or has 3 licky at least!
Either way, the Zhangs have evolved over the years! From the norm 5 spice Sam-Cham-Buk and the alkali Zhangs; they now includes abalone, bird nest, etc etc. Crystal jade even came up with the unique western kind of dumpling!

They are seriously 4/5 licky! However i have to mention, they are not for the sweet tooth. My Mum find it funny tasting, but that is because the older generation never liked sweet Zhangs? Even if the Zhangs have to be taken sweet, it have to be tagged with the alkali taste.


















Still no dumpling can escape the fate of being microwave! Never Never microwave ya rice dumplings >_> they will jus explode! Steaming them is the best way!

Either way, am jus blogging for the sake of blogging =P too lazy to move my arse and tidy up my room LOL.

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a great welcome to those passing by =)

been a while since i last wrote, and post my photographs here.

finally decided to pull myself out of those painful heaps of memories, and start life afresh.

this blog is nothing more than a space for my cam whoring, random thoughts, artwork, and photographs.

footnote: am a really random person.

alas, wait up for more of my posting =.0

Cheerios,
Fero

pin yer' comments, appreciation, my erks to you, request, anything goes!

In alphabetical order!

Kun Hua - Tsk tsk

Rich - Thine army senior

Ulrica - Thy best fren who-aint-a-math-exclaimation

Xiao Wu - The fun sized boy

June 2008

July 2008

August 2008

September 2008

October 2008

November 2008

December 2008

i will place links of post (that are more unique)/ special features here periodically.
yes this is selective publishing =P and there is nothing you can do about it!

24062008
Here is part of my Bdae Wishlist! For the full list, please see in blog ^^
08062008
Here's my FE-10 test roll! Scroll over the pics to stop and see description =P