Saturday, June 28, 2008
10:40 PM
I am not sure how many would agree with me; living in Singapore is getting boring, boring and more boring. I found myself waking up, attending to my mundane chores, followed by hanging around the house not knowing what to do.
I do have a life! Thanks mama for asking me to help her prepare some dish! Thanks myself for making me practise my kanas, and penning down my thought. Apologies to my Feten; i promise i will bring you out some day :P Thanks to pals and frens who are there for me (doh you guys aint always around, am still glad and happy with that occasional pop-hi).
Nonetheless, would you be sastified with life of heading to town, random walking, random cafe-ing? Not forgetting to mention, random shopping, random oogling at eye candies.
Perhaps it is not the fault of this little island; i ought to get engaged in some weekend activities, or get a real time bf/ gf to spend my time with. However, we have to agree that we are too small, and there aint enough quality entertainment? There ought to be some, but they are definitely too expensive for anyone to afford/ indulge.
This very moment, as i am rounding up this entry, am feeling really empty. Here are the days again, where i woke up not knowing what to do, not knowing what i want in life, not knowing what is the point of life.
Empty, empty, empty. It is really interesting how i can stay positive so just bring a smile to others.
For e.g. Terry San bought a overpriced carpet in Dubai, but alas i was able to tell him, well look past that, since what done cant be reversed, why not look forward to how nice it will be when it is in ya house?
For e.g. a fren of mine was feeling jaded after some rs rejection. There he was like the past me, feeling emo and feeling sad. I was able to tell him, there ought to be a point where your heart is so damaged and killed that you will no longer feel the pain, and will move on.
Lol, i am not sure if that was exactly how i felt, but my heart felt really dead, so dead that it has problem sensing LoVe. Perhaps i am not swept off my feet as yet? lol shrugs.
Anyway, nowadays i really fear sleeping. I really hate the feeling when i close my eyes, feeling disconnected with the World, feeling really empty. Sigh Sigh Qi is not feeling well again. ...
