Sunday, August 31, 2008
7:10 PM
Many have happened over the week.People come and go; and i can already sense who is leaving my side, and whoever is not going to stay very long either. Yes my life is sad, my social circle is pathetic; it is full of leavers and will-leave-someday-leavers.
Shrugs, i am not a social creature to begin with; not that i am a loner, but rather i am not good at making friends. Hence those faithful few (i really mean few) who stood by me, they really saw the gem in me? lol
Relationship; and yea, relationship again! This very moment, i am still feeling very lost. Yes i cant seem to find a direction, and that-light-which-always-shine-upon-one's-path seems to have blown, or short circuited for that matter.
Why do we need to be in a rs for?IMHO, i just want to have someone whom i can share alot of my time with (say am possesive? prolly yes in a way; but alas it is hard for me to trust and feel secure anymore, and what is wrong to want to live tgt?) and build a meaningful life with. Hang out often together, meet my folks, meet my frens, and possibly live together?
Me?After all those nightmares i have had, it is hard for me to entrust my life/ all of my LoVe to anyone anymore. Ouch! That sounds painful, but alas, i dun want to break down again; pardon me for being selfish. I have to be defensive here, for those who know me/ have been with me before, when am in LoVe, i will go the extra mile and put in my all for my other half.
At this moment, i am trying very hard to stay happy, and stay positive. All i wish for is that i can feel more secured, and contented. What is so difficult to give my all to my other half after all? :P
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